right.

[juldea]

so I've done pretty well at forging myself a materially-independent lifestyle - I pay my own rent, car payments, food, fun, gas, insurance - the only thing I don't pay for is my tuition. Maybe this is somehow connected?

However, being spritually and emotionally and intellectually independent is failing miserably. Anyone know of a good deserted island?

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[juldea.livejournal.com]

Without the people I love, friends family etc, I would be very unhappy and I think I would become lonely and probably sick and not want to live after a time.

That's what I'm trying to avoid - I'll enjoy the company of my friends, and others that I surround myself with, and certainly their company is wonderful! - but I won't depend on it, because these people won't always be around. And there won't always be someone to take their place. Someday I might just be alone, and I'm going to have to deal with it. Better learn now.

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[zenandtheart.livejournal.com]

What makes you think you'll be alone? I'm 99% sure that I never will be - why would you? I was going to say that I don't know anyone who's completely alone, but then if they were completely alone I wouldn't know them so... I'm a doofus *grin*.
And if it does happen why not learn to deal with it at the time? Why put yourself through unnecessary grief now just in case it happens?

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[juldea.livejournal.com]

shrug. something inside tells me it's gonna happen. I can't say why or how or when, but it will.