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[juldea]

I don't think that stopping the things that I am proud of myself for is what is going to make me feel better. Why does no one else understand that?

I guess I'm going to start losing friends because ... well I don't know why. Because I think that giving up things I have incentive to do won't give me incentive to do things? Imagine that.

I am so bottled up with emotion, and I have no outlet for it. I could cry, but that's not physical enough. I want to take a hammer and destroy something.

Which friend will decide they don't want to deal with me next?

I told you I'd end up alone. One by one...

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Corch again

[zenandtheart.livejournal.com]

Jewls, I can see where rachel is coming from, I am far more removed from the situation than she is and even I have felt sometimes like I am repeating myself to a brick wall. You said yourself that you have made up your mind about somethings...well if those are the things you are certain of then you must decide how to change whats left in order to make your definites deffinite, if that makes any sense at all.

I wish I could be more help to you, Pehaps I'll call you this weekend and we can talk. Whatever happens, I'm not going to simply abandon you, youre still important to me, you always will be.

much love
C.