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[juldea]

I don't think that stopping the things that I am proud of myself for is what is going to make me feel better. Why does no one else understand that?

I guess I'm going to start losing friends because ... well I don't know why. Because I think that giving up things I have incentive to do won't give me incentive to do things? Imagine that.

I am so bottled up with emotion, and I have no outlet for it. I could cry, but that's not physical enough. I want to take a hammer and destroy something.

Which friend will decide they don't want to deal with me next?

I told you I'd end up alone. One by one...

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[ex-dervish821.livejournal.com]

it's not that i don't want to deal with you. i've just heard the same things over and over, and said the same things over and over in response, and we keep ending up nowhere. i don't have any new responses to give to you. i don't know what else to do. but, if feeling sorry for yourself is going to help you feel better, by all means do it.