feelings

[juldea]

For those of you who know Nick/tinder and have not read the post on his LJ yet, please do so now. Although you won't really learn anything there that I won't allude to here, I guess.

I need to call my dad.

I feel torn up. Certainly I don't claim to be feeling anything like what Nick or Kate or Rachel feel. But... it was a death in my family, too. My extended family.

I might go to Edmond tonight. Nick won't be coming out I'm sure, but perhaps Rachel will, or they'll let someone take Veronica for a while. Or, if nothing else, I'll be with the rest of the Edmond extended family.

Oh man, I didn't even post about that here like I wanted to, the other night. About Edmond. How the group, the people, and my place were still there. They missed -me-. And I missed them, more than I knew.

Changes are hard.

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[tramissa.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I have tears and I have never even met them, just knowing how much Rachel and Nick were dreading this and how much they loved him.

It may have been extended family - but that is a family born of choice and love - often times as strong or stronger than 'blood' family. Go up and see who you can, you need to grieve now too.