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[juldea]

Add me to the people who don't post when they don't have something to complain about. ;) And boy, this post is nothing but complaining. Only read if you won't be annoyed by that. ;)

I really feel behind. I know I'm behind in reading. I'm not even halfway through this book on Darwin that I should be done with. And I'm technically behind on my philosophy readings, although as this is my 5th philosophy class I've read all of these Platonic dialogues already. I could use some reading of my phys. math book to go over what I wasn't in class for on Monday. And I'm not behind at all in E&M, but reading the book to suppliment her lectures always helps.

I'm not really behind in any of the classes, though. I've missed two homeworks in philosophy because of silly ignorance ("Hey, a couple minutes until class, maybe I should see if something is due...") but one of those will be dropped. I've got a phys. math assignment due on Monday and a paper for philosophy due on Tuesday, and I hope to work on those over the weekend.

But for some reason I feel like I'm losing my grip on these classes. *Sigh* Just all the more reason I shouldn't be skipping, eh?

And I'm really, really behind in my housework. Litterbox needs to be cleaned, the apartment swept, vaccuming done, and this large (2x4x3 ft cube) pile of winter clothing on my floor needs to find homes.

It just seems that anytime I am at home, no matter how much sleep I've already had, I need to nap. My bed is warm and comfortable and I'm cold and tired and unhappy. I wish the weather would go back to being warm. It's dry, that's one good thing, now it needs to re-warm up. So that I don't have to wear double layers of EVERYTHING if I just want to get out of bed. :P

I don't like feeling out of control when it comes to my own actions. I want to be able to control my sleepiness and hungriness... or at least how much I sleep and eat. But that always seems to fail. And then I just gain weight.

I wonder if there is enough room in the living room to do Pilates tomorrow morning. I don't want to suffer a lack of exercise because of a stupid football game.

I'm rather upset with my living room, actually. The whole apartment. There's so much stuff, it feels so cramped. I don't have any workout space, due to the couch cutting the room in half. It doesn't have anywhere else to go, though. My room is cramped, too. Certainly the mountain of clothes doesn't help.

And that leads me to worrying about moving in 7 months. What will I take? How will I take it? Where will I move to? What will I have room for? Will I see Jason sometime before then? :P *sigh*

Whee for free-form ranting.

Some measure of control is all I want.

In better news, I will make all my bills this month.

Comments

[ex-dervish821.livejournal.com]

i never heard anybody say phys. math. always p-math, like p-chem. interesting.

also, you're graduating in may? i guess i knew that somewhere but forgot it.

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[juldea.livejournal.com]

Well, when I am positive everyone knows what I mean, I say p-math. However, many people who read this might not know what p. stands for!

Yes, that is the hope! Assuming I pass (well, make an above-3.0 average, to satisfy letters requirements) all my classes.