All....

I'm not a cool guy anymore
As if I ever was before
I took a look at all the signs
Then rolled it over in my mind
The feelings I could not release
Became a bitter part of me
What was I thinking of?
It couldn't stay the way it was
I looked at my reflection
And I saw a stranger's face
I saw where I was going
And I had to walk away

I lost a girl, it's just as well
She tried to save me from myself
I've still got her on my mind
Tossing and turning in my bed
But if she had stayed another week
I would have dragged her down with me
She took it till she'd had enough
Is that what I though love was?
I told her "see you later"
But it's hard to see at all
At the bottom of the barrel
With your back against the wall

I'm not a cool guy anymore
Left it behind, then locked the door
I know you can't escape the past
Now I look back and have to laugh
I was my worst enemy
It almost got the best of me
What was I thinking of?
It couldn't stay the way it was
I looked up one day and saw that
It was up to me
You can only be a victim
If you admit defeat

All....

I'm not a cool guy anymore
As if I ever was before
I took a look at all the signs
Then rolled it over in my mind
The feelings I could not release
Became a bitter part of me
What was I thinking of?
It couldn't stay the way it was
I looked at my reflection
And I saw a stranger's face
I saw where I was going
And I had to walk away

I lost a girl, it's just as well
She tried to save me from myself
I've still got her on my mind
Tossing and turning in my bed
But if she had stayed another week
I would have dragged her down with me
She took it till she'd had enough
Is that what I though love was?
I told her "see you later"
But it's hard to see at all
At the bottom of the barrel
With your back against the wall

I'm not a cool guy anymore
Left it behind, then locked the door
I know you can't escape the past
Now I look back and have to laugh
I was my worst enemy
It almost got the best of me
What was I thinking of?
It couldn't stay the way it was
I looked up one day and saw that
It was up to me
You can only be a victim
If you admit defeat

know the right moment

if I go by Pad Thai and get the lunch special there monday-friday before going to work, that will only be $27.40/wk for food. It's a lot of food and I bet I can just live on it and 2 pieces of fruit and some dairy in the evening (to round out the diet). Not incredibly cheap (many people wish they had $30/wk to spend on food I'm sure) but I can afford it. And it's comfort food.

The lunch special is pad thai or fried rice with two entrees, a spring roll, and a drink. Today I had green curry chicken and beef broccoli as my entrees. And tofu pad thai. yum.

My fortune cookie said, "Know the right moment." I'm convincing myself that it's insightful.

My nose is runny and my throat is a little sore. I don't want to get sick... :(

I dressed up today. It's only logical since I didn't have to ride my bike. Only I'm so used to sitting cross-legged in my chair at work that I'm still doing so in my skirt. No one can see so who cares?

I emailed a few of my professors. So far one has written back very understanding. I'm glad.

Oh, for those of you who aren't my livejournal friends but who still read this, I guess it's all out in the open now for me to let you know that my parents are getting divorced and that's why I'm all fucked up right now.

However, right now I don't want to talk about it. I want to read my webcomics.

know the right moment

if I go by Pad Thai and get the lunch special there monday-friday before going to work, that will only be $27.40/wk for food. It's a lot of food and I bet I can just live on it and 2 pieces of fruit and some dairy in the evening (to round out the diet). Not incredibly cheap (many people wish they had $30/wk to spend on food I'm sure) but I can afford it. And it's comfort food.

The lunch special is pad thai or fried rice with two entrees, a spring roll, and a drink. Today I had green curry chicken and beef broccoli as my entrees. And tofu pad thai. yum.

My fortune cookie said, "Know the right moment." I'm convincing myself that it's insightful.

My nose is runny and my throat is a little sore. I don't want to get sick... :(

I dressed up today. It's only logical since I didn't have to ride my bike. Only I'm so used to sitting cross-legged in my chair at work that I'm still doing so in my skirt. No one can see so who cares?

I emailed a few of my professors. So far one has written back very understanding. I'm glad.

Oh, for those of you who aren't my livejournal friends but who still read this, I guess it's all out in the open now for me to let you know that my parents are getting divorced and that's why I'm all fucked up right now.

However, right now I don't want to talk about it. I want to read my webcomics.

stuff the ballot boxes

So, like, go to this link and vote in these polls. I don't care who you vote for in some categories, as long as you vote for Soraya Al Musri and Desert Fire and Starfest when you see it. I also think Morocco deserves a lifetime achievement award.

Thanks...

stuff the ballot boxes

So, like, go to this link and vote in these polls. I don't care who you vote for in some categories, as long as you vote for Soraya Al Musri and Desert Fire and Starfest when you see it. I also think Morocco deserves a lifetime achievement award.

Thanks...

bored

Well I got to work and needed something to do, so I've been looking at ebay all night. The bellydance selection is quite sparse when it comes to full costumes - lots of hip scarves though. And lots of videos. Then I decided to be brave and look at bras. Found a possible Victoria's Secret bra for $2.50 after shipping. I'm watching it... there are still 6 days left. ;)

I want to leave and go to band practice.

bored

Well I got to work and needed something to do, so I've been looking at ebay all night. The bellydance selection is quite sparse when it comes to full costumes - lots of hip scarves though. And lots of videos. Then I decided to be brave and look at bras. Found a possible Victoria's Secret bra for $2.50 after shipping. I'm watching it... there are still 6 days left. ;)

I want to leave and go to band practice.