freakishness
14 November 2002 17:45![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
juldeaSo it ends up that I skipped a day of my life. Pretty much completely lost it. And, well, I don't regret it.
Originally intending to stay up all night Tuesday night to do things, instead I fell asleep at around 2am. I woke up to disagree with my alarm clock at 7am, and I woke again to use the restroom at about 2pm, but in total I seriously slept until 6pm on Wednesday. It was dark outside when I awoke. And it wasn't the blurry awakening of someone who has slept too little or too much, it was the clear awakening of someone who has slept just enough.
What does this mean? I don't have a clue. I missed an entire day, work and all, without warning. Certainly I wasn't in the greatest of mental moods.
There are very few people right now that I feel close enough with to talk to them while I'm in such a mood. And, ironically enough, a couple of them that I feel close enough with, I don't want to talk to them while I'm in such a mood because they shouldn't have to deal with me while I'm like that. So take it as a good thing if I don't approach you when I'm upset. You really don't want to see it. I don't even think Jason deserves everything I dump on him.
So, I decided to continue spending a day away from 'life', and didn't get on my computer for a few hours, choosing instead to clean my apartment and read for class and do other important things that I never seem to find the time to do. And I got things done, and it was a good thing.
Not completely cheered up, I got on the computer and promptly ignored anything except communication to Jason. And that helped a lot. As horrible as he thinks he is at making me feel better, talking to him really does help me work through whatever I'm feeling.
Then, I looked at and replied to other communications.![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
la2il2ok logged off as soon as I sent him a reply, and I still don't know what to make of that. dervish was still up, and so I talked to her for a while. And looked at baby pictures. :)
Interestingly enough, I was sleepy again at about 2am, and went to bed. I woke up with no problems this morning at 7:30, and spent some time playing with my hair (blue spiker gel! Although I have less spikes and more of a crest) before coming in to campus. I read for my classes and - this hasn't happened in weeks - went to both of them. And didn't fall asleep! Or even start to nod off! It was amazing. I was happy with the results.
Strangely enough, though, I still felt tired enough to warrant a nap this afternoon before work.
I guess I'm just a freakish kid. Strange sleep cycles and all that. Not to mention mood swings. Maybe this day off will fuel me until Thanksgiving break...
Originally intending to stay up all night Tuesday night to do things, instead I fell asleep at around 2am. I woke up to disagree with my alarm clock at 7am, and I woke again to use the restroom at about 2pm, but in total I seriously slept until 6pm on Wednesday. It was dark outside when I awoke. And it wasn't the blurry awakening of someone who has slept too little or too much, it was the clear awakening of someone who has slept just enough.
What does this mean? I don't have a clue. I missed an entire day, work and all, without warning. Certainly I wasn't in the greatest of mental moods.
There are very few people right now that I feel close enough with to talk to them while I'm in such a mood. And, ironically enough, a couple of them that I feel close enough with, I don't want to talk to them while I'm in such a mood because they shouldn't have to deal with me while I'm like that. So take it as a good thing if I don't approach you when I'm upset. You really don't want to see it. I don't even think Jason deserves everything I dump on him.
So, I decided to continue spending a day away from 'life', and didn't get on my computer for a few hours, choosing instead to clean my apartment and read for class and do other important things that I never seem to find the time to do. And I got things done, and it was a good thing.
Not completely cheered up, I got on the computer and promptly ignored anything except communication to Jason. And that helped a lot. As horrible as he thinks he is at making me feel better, talking to him really does help me work through whatever I'm feeling.
Then, I looked at and replied to other communications.
la2il2ok logged off as soon as I sent him a reply, and I still don't know what to make of that. dervish was still up, and so I talked to her for a while. And looked at baby pictures. :)Interestingly enough, I was sleepy again at about 2am, and went to bed. I woke up with no problems this morning at 7:30, and spent some time playing with my hair (blue spiker gel! Although I have less spikes and more of a crest) before coming in to campus. I read for my classes and - this hasn't happened in weeks - went to both of them. And didn't fall asleep! Or even start to nod off! It was amazing. I was happy with the results.
Strangely enough, though, I still felt tired enough to warrant a nap this afternoon before work.
I guess I'm just a freakish kid. Strange sleep cycles and all that. Not to mention mood swings. Maybe this day off will fuel me until Thanksgiving break...