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[juldea]

I'm sorry. I didn't lie to you, I do want to hang out with you. [no, this is not written with any one person in mind, it's to everyone]. It's just that, whenever I have spare time on my hands, I end up depressed and crying. Not in the mood to hang out. I feel guilty if I think about you or you call during this time, because when I'm in the middle of a scheduled activity and thinking about what I'd -like- to do in my free time, I think about you. But during my free time, I'm... well, I'm thinking of what I should be doing with my free time. Not having it free, basically. I don't need to get into it here. I just hope that no one thinks I've lied to them and that I don't want to be their friend.