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juldeaSo I went back and found the list from long ago of things to talk about... and here we go. These discussions are probably incredibly shorter than they originally were going to be.
physical closeness (touchy-feelyness) with friends
I covered that.
combining three geographically-separate sections of my life
Well, everyone knows that I live in Oklahoma and have friends in Oklahoma. Jason lives in Boston, Massachusetts. Troy, Jed, Scot, Mike, and Graham live in California. Will there ever be a day when I can combine all the parts of my life into one whole?
I need some form of huge event that is important enough to bring everyone together. The only thing I can really think of is a wedding, and well... that's not happening for a while. Although I certainly hope everyone who is invited will be able to make it - I promise to give you enough time to save money and make plans. Maybe it's incredibly girly of me, but I do think that I want my wedding to be a very special day in my life, and involve all my friends. Maybe I want it to be special because it's an event that can bring all my friends together, because they'll feel socially obligated to come? Oh, well, anyway...
It's possible, happily, that eventually these sections will be much closer. Brendan and Chris are at least moving to the Bay area, possibly more people, and hopefully eventually goldbug too. I would like to move there to stay with the band, eventually, and assumedly Jason would come with me. Then the sections of my life wouldn't be more than a few hours away.
But for now, it's almost like I have three separate lives... And each is enjoyable, but I would like to feel less schizophrenic :)
life's neverending thirst for love
I think I remember what I originally intended to talk about when writing this. Being in love is great, don't get me wrong, but there is always the urge to fall in love again. The romance, the emotions. The heart-stopping moment of confession as you wait to find out if your companion feels the same. It never ends. You can be perfectly content in your love with someone, but there is always temptation to start anew and fresh with someone else.
the psychological level I reached on Friday night
Man.... I still remember that night. I can't explain how right it was. Yes, I was really drunk. I was in a club with Troy, Jed, and Graham. And David Pinegar. There was music playing... beautiful music.... I was with friends I loved, was just finishing a week of stress-free life and companionship. I was unwound enough to be touchy, give hugs and lean against shoulders. I felt like... I wanted to stay at that level forever. Just smiling, and hugging, and loving everyone in the room.
the size of my cats
When I got home from my visit, my cats were tiny. I mean, jeez, they were little peanuts. It's been long enough now that they seem normal-sized again, but wow. I remember exclaiming when I first walked in the door and seeing Pixel. See, Troy has 5 cats, and they are all pretty large. I think the smallest one, Dinah, might still be about twice Pixel's size. When I first got there, I thought the cats were huge, but I got used to them. Then I came home. Wow, my babies were so small.
the CDs I returned with
I remember that I had recently discussed on livejournal having one of the wussiest CD collections of anyone I know (although Amanda beat me). That was why it was amazing that I came back from California with eight new CDs, only three of which I bought. I bought Mock Heroic by Admiral Twin, Throwing the Game by Lucky Boys Confusion, and The Siket Disc by Phish. The remaining five CDs were gifts from Troy and Jed. Troy gave me 3 burned CDs - a live Birthday show with some Park Avenue, the Orb Festival featuring Dutch Girls on Bikes and Low Flying Owls, and a CD of unreleased studio songs by U2 (which I was going to give to my brother for Christmas, but I haven't seen him yet!). Jed gave me two CDs - a mp3 CD of rare live and unreleased Smashing Pumpkins songs, and a copy of The Sophtware Slump by Grandaddy. I'm listening to the SP stuff now, in fact (goldbug put it on while I was at the dinner party). All in all, it was quite a stash to bring back. Definitely enough music for the drive home.
the cool stuff I bought today
Um, wow. I don't even remember. Was that the day goldbug and I went shopping at the mall? I got so much good stuff that day. But I don't think you really care, plus it'll be more interesting with some of the items to just surprise people (like the pants... muah... only goldbug knows what I'm talking about!).
Okay, so I've caught up on that list. Now I will wait a few minutes, and hopefully work on the list I made earlier tonight.
physical closeness (touchy-feelyness) with friends
I covered that.
combining three geographically-separate sections of my life
Well, everyone knows that I live in Oklahoma and have friends in Oklahoma. Jason lives in Boston, Massachusetts. Troy, Jed, Scot, Mike, and Graham live in California. Will there ever be a day when I can combine all the parts of my life into one whole?
I need some form of huge event that is important enough to bring everyone together. The only thing I can really think of is a wedding, and well... that's not happening for a while. Although I certainly hope everyone who is invited will be able to make it - I promise to give you enough time to save money and make plans. Maybe it's incredibly girly of me, but I do think that I want my wedding to be a very special day in my life, and involve all my friends. Maybe I want it to be special because it's an event that can bring all my friends together, because they'll feel socially obligated to come? Oh, well, anyway...
It's possible, happily, that eventually these sections will be much closer. Brendan and Chris are at least moving to the Bay area, possibly more people, and hopefully eventually goldbug too. I would like to move there to stay with the band, eventually, and assumedly Jason would come with me. Then the sections of my life wouldn't be more than a few hours away.
But for now, it's almost like I have three separate lives... And each is enjoyable, but I would like to feel less schizophrenic :)
life's neverending thirst for love
I think I remember what I originally intended to talk about when writing this. Being in love is great, don't get me wrong, but there is always the urge to fall in love again. The romance, the emotions. The heart-stopping moment of confession as you wait to find out if your companion feels the same. It never ends. You can be perfectly content in your love with someone, but there is always temptation to start anew and fresh with someone else.
the psychological level I reached on Friday night
Man.... I still remember that night. I can't explain how right it was. Yes, I was really drunk. I was in a club with Troy, Jed, and Graham. And David Pinegar. There was music playing... beautiful music.... I was with friends I loved, was just finishing a week of stress-free life and companionship. I was unwound enough to be touchy, give hugs and lean against shoulders. I felt like... I wanted to stay at that level forever. Just smiling, and hugging, and loving everyone in the room.
the size of my cats
When I got home from my visit, my cats were tiny. I mean, jeez, they were little peanuts. It's been long enough now that they seem normal-sized again, but wow. I remember exclaiming when I first walked in the door and seeing Pixel. See, Troy has 5 cats, and they are all pretty large. I think the smallest one, Dinah, might still be about twice Pixel's size. When I first got there, I thought the cats were huge, but I got used to them. Then I came home. Wow, my babies were so small.
the CDs I returned with
I remember that I had recently discussed on livejournal having one of the wussiest CD collections of anyone I know (although Amanda beat me). That was why it was amazing that I came back from California with eight new CDs, only three of which I bought. I bought Mock Heroic by Admiral Twin, Throwing the Game by Lucky Boys Confusion, and The Siket Disc by Phish. The remaining five CDs were gifts from Troy and Jed. Troy gave me 3 burned CDs - a live Birthday show with some Park Avenue, the Orb Festival featuring Dutch Girls on Bikes and Low Flying Owls, and a CD of unreleased studio songs by U2 (which I was going to give to my brother for Christmas, but I haven't seen him yet!). Jed gave me two CDs - a mp3 CD of rare live and unreleased Smashing Pumpkins songs, and a copy of The Sophtware Slump by Grandaddy. I'm listening to the SP stuff now, in fact (goldbug put it on while I was at the dinner party). All in all, it was quite a stash to bring back. Definitely enough music for the drive home.
the cool stuff I bought today
Um, wow. I don't even remember. Was that the day goldbug and I went shopping at the mall? I got so much good stuff that day. But I don't think you really care, plus it'll be more interesting with some of the items to just surprise people (like the pants... muah... only goldbug knows what I'm talking about!).
Okay, so I've caught up on that list. Now I will wait a few minutes, and hopefully work on the list I made earlier tonight.
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on 26 Jan 2002 01:29 (UTC)Re:
on 26 Jan 2002 07:40 (UTC)Geez, I think about this too much. ;)
But really. I have the wedding party like, planned out. I mean, I'm actually worried because I'm hogging the spots! Deanna will be my maid (matron? who knows...) of honor, with Blake as her escort, and Emily and Travis, and then Jason's sister Melissa with... someone. That's the only person Jason gets to pick, laf!! His best man, I assume. Hehehe.
Deanna will wear burgundy, Emily will wear navy, and Melissa forest green.
I told you I think about this too much.
And, of course, when I think about it, I'm not being practical. I'm assuming that one of my grandparents leaves me 5 million dollars that I'm only supposed to spend on a wedding, grin.
Ugh, I feel so girly.
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on 26 Jan 2002 11:31 (UTC)sometimes i think it is sad that it seems that my kids will be bunches older than my friends' kids. like i used to think that my kids and goldbug's would hang out, until she pointed out that my kids will probably be able to babysit hers.
and i wouldn't worry about hogging the spots. you don't HAVE to have only 3 of each attendant, and you don't HAVE to use blake as deanna's escort, etc. when i was in my aunt's wedding, my escort (the best man) was some guy named gary, and his wife just sat in the audience. or you could just fill up your wedding part with *everybody*, and not have anybody just sitting and watching. :)
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on 26 Jan 2002 13:59 (UTC)I don't want more than six attendants though. That itself seems like too many! ;)
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on 26 Jan 2002 12:04 (UTC)Re:
on 26 Jan 2002 14:01 (UTC)I only have the songs from it as "Judas O'Reilly - 1" etc, no names for the songs.
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on 26 Jan 2002 15:10 (UTC)