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juldeashould I be the one taking the initiative, and saying "let's not talk about happy stuff, I'm really upset and fucked up and want to talk about it"?
I mean, everyone says "yes I've read your livejournal", and then they go on to talk about inane happy shit.
I don't want to pretend to be happy. That's what happens every other time, I start to feel better and I just forget that anything is wrong and start acting like everything is okay, and nothing gets changed. I certainly don't know what to fucking do...
It's sucky because there's movies going on at Karen's that I could go and pretend to watch and be into and act like nothing's going wrong, but I'd be lying. Something is wrong.
I'll just go to bed.
I mean, everyone says "yes I've read your livejournal", and then they go on to talk about inane happy shit.
I don't want to pretend to be happy. That's what happens every other time, I start to feel better and I just forget that anything is wrong and start acting like everything is okay, and nothing gets changed. I certainly don't know what to fucking do...
It's sucky because there's movies going on at Karen's that I could go and pretend to watch and be into and act like nothing's going wrong, but I'd be lying. Something is wrong.
I'll just go to bed.