Loneliness
31 July 2001 18:17![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
juldeaWell, fark. I had something I wanted to post about, but now that I have the page up, I've forgotten it. BAH!
I'll keep it open until I remember.
--time passes--
Well, 15 minutes. I still can't think of it. But I guess I have stuff to talk about.
I'm still wearing the long-sleeved shirt. I got pretty warm when I went outside at 5 and it was 108 outside and god-knows-what in my car, but it never got past uncomfortable. And that's why I have AC in the car, y'know? So maybe I'll just wear long-sleeved tops every day. =P I wear pants most of the time, too, so that won't change.
Why am I jealous and hurt by the fact that Jason is logging off of the mud to play a computer game online with some other friend? Today was his day off and he was online a bit in the morning, but busy, and then he had to go, and he came back for a little while but we both got caught up in things and now he is going to go play TA.
I think Goldbug, er, goldbug rubbed off on me. I think I'm really, really lonely. I miss Rachel and goldbug and Jason a lot. I have Brendan to talk to, but during work days we're never in the same place. And I want someone to talk to in person, not just over ICQ.
Oh, I know what I was going to talk about. Silly me. I picked up my 30-day trial supply of daily contacts. I don't see how that's really big news that I wanted to share, but... I did.
So anyway. I'll sit and twiddle my thumbs some more.
I'll keep it open until I remember.
--time passes--
Well, 15 minutes. I still can't think of it. But I guess I have stuff to talk about.
I'm still wearing the long-sleeved shirt. I got pretty warm when I went outside at 5 and it was 108 outside and god-knows-what in my car, but it never got past uncomfortable. And that's why I have AC in the car, y'know? So maybe I'll just wear long-sleeved tops every day. =P I wear pants most of the time, too, so that won't change.
Why am I jealous and hurt by the fact that Jason is logging off of the mud to play a computer game online with some other friend? Today was his day off and he was online a bit in the morning, but busy, and then he had to go, and he came back for a little while but we both got caught up in things and now he is going to go play TA.
I think Goldbug, er, goldbug rubbed off on me. I think I'm really, really lonely. I miss Rachel and goldbug and Jason a lot. I have Brendan to talk to, but during work days we're never in the same place. And I want someone to talk to in person, not just over ICQ.
Oh, I know what I was going to talk about. Silly me. I picked up my 30-day trial supply of daily contacts. I don't see how that's really big news that I wanted to share, but... I did.
So anyway. I'll sit and twiddle my thumbs some more.
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on 31 Jul 2001 17:05 (UTC)so, i guess the point is, it sucks. i don't know how to make it better.