just like randy

[juldea]

I'm thankful for:

the last four weeks

all of my friends, whether they can/will read this or not

my family, who cares about me in their own farked-up way

Pixel and Matrix

this 3/4 bar of Dove milk chocolate and this box of kleenex

Radiohead (and all of the other new-to-me music)

holding back on crying until I got home from the airport

having a month's worth of journals and comics to catch up on so my brain can stay occupied

my home, my possessions, my comfort

that I just found the Christopher O'Riley piano solo versions of 15 Radiohead songs

Myself

Don't Change Your Plans by Ben Folds Five

Sometimes I get the feeling
That I won't be on this planet
For very long
I really like it here
I'm quite attached to it
I hope I'm wrong

All I really wanna say
Is you're the reason I wanna stay
I loved you before I met you
And I met you just in time
'Cause there was nothing left

I sat here on my suitcase
In our empty new apartment
'Til the sun went down
Then I walked back down the stairs
With all my bags and drove away
You must be freakin' out

All I know is I've gotta be
Where my heart says I oughta be
It often makes no sense, in fact,
I never understand these things I feel

Don't change your plans for me
I won't move to LA
The leaves are falling back east
That's where I'm gonna stay

You have made me smile again
In fact, I might be sore from it
It's been a while
I know we've been together
Many times before
I'll see you on the other side

But don't change your plans for me
I won't move to LA
The leaves are falling back east
That's where I'm going to stay

All I really wanna say
Is you're the reason I wanna stay
But destiny is calling and won't hold
And when my time is up I'm outta here

All I know is I've gotta be
Where my heart says I oughta be
It often makes no sense, in fact
I never understand these things I feel

I love you, goodbye
I love you, goodbye...