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juldeaWell, the high I was in earlier has come to a screeching halt, hitting the brick wall of apathy. At the moment I feel that being depressed would be better than this fighting-to-make-myself-care. However, I know I would be a lot worse off if I were having a depressive spell at the moment...
It's time for another history of science paper, and I just don't give a damn to investigate why P.W. Bridgeman said, "The laws of thermodynamics smell of their human origin." The book was pretty cool in that I learned a lot of thermo, and in a good mixture of laymen's and scientific terms, but otherwise... I just don't care about people, I guess. I don't care to discuss "What kind of topics are of the most importance to [the scientists you read about]?" and "Why does doing science matter to them?" Bleh.
SO many parts of me want to just go to bed.
But yeah, I want to graduate, and I have to have that 3.0 average to graduate, and so I should at least get a C in this class. The only grades in the class are the papers. Ha, I thought that was a good thing at the beginning of the semester. There's one more paper, a heavier-weighed final paper, to do at the end of the semester, but why assume I will be inspired to do a good job on that one if I'm not now? Even if I skip this one, I won't necessarily feel gung-ho about finishing up that last one.
Interesting that the fact that I did an awful job on the last one and still got a decent grade doesn't make me any more likely to start on this one. I mean, I could do badly on this one, too, and probably make another B. But I don't even want to do a bad paper, I just want to go to bed.
blah, blah. waiting for inspiration to strike.
It's time for another history of science paper, and I just don't give a damn to investigate why P.W. Bridgeman said, "The laws of thermodynamics smell of their human origin." The book was pretty cool in that I learned a lot of thermo, and in a good mixture of laymen's and scientific terms, but otherwise... I just don't care about people, I guess. I don't care to discuss "What kind of topics are of the most importance to [the scientists you read about]?" and "Why does doing science matter to them?" Bleh.
SO many parts of me want to just go to bed.
But yeah, I want to graduate, and I have to have that 3.0 average to graduate, and so I should at least get a C in this class. The only grades in the class are the papers. Ha, I thought that was a good thing at the beginning of the semester. There's one more paper, a heavier-weighed final paper, to do at the end of the semester, but why assume I will be inspired to do a good job on that one if I'm not now? Even if I skip this one, I won't necessarily feel gung-ho about finishing up that last one.
Interesting that the fact that I did an awful job on the last one and still got a decent grade doesn't make me any more likely to start on this one. I mean, I could do badly on this one, too, and probably make another B. But I don't even want to do a bad paper, I just want to go to bed.
blah, blah. waiting for inspiration to strike.