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laundry day
26 May 2002 01:20I did laundry tonight. Jason's washer was bigger than I thought - after I sorted out four loads, he put one of them into the washer to show me my idea of a load was crazy. Seeing that it wasn't even half full, I consolodated into two loads. Guess what Rachel always told me was right. ;) Maybe I should have HER washer and dryer.
Jason and I went bike-riding today... for about 10-15 minutes. We rode around the block a bit, up and down some hills (up a really hard one), and at that point Jason needed to stop. I felt a bit better about myself that I definitely could've kept going when he needed to stop. I guess he needs to get in shape too... wish I could get him to exercise with me!! That would be wonderful for my motivation. I'm going to try to get us to bike a little each day, at least..
Before we went out to do that, I kind of broke down. It was 4pm, and all I had done all day was sleep, eat, and read a book. I was feeling restless, but there was nothing I could do. I wanted to do something physical, but most of my avenues were blocked - my exercise videos and DDR pad were at Adriana's, Jason's sister's tae-bo tapes were lent to a friend of hers, and going outside wasn't very useful because I would get lost after turning two corners unless I headed down the main streets, which very quickly dump into bad neighborhoods before becoming good again. Jason was sitting at the computer playing DAoC as normal, and I felt like I was being ignored. Anything I do here is dependent on him, because he knows the town and I don't. I don't feel comfortable just leaving in my car and driving 'out' - I don't know where I'd go or what I'd do. I tell him that I want to do SOMETHING and he asks me what... but I don't know what there is to do. He's just fine sitting at his computer all day, but I am growing serious issues with sitting on my ass and doing nothing. If I were getting 'positive' recreational things done - like advancing on a video game, reading a book, watching movies, etc - I'd feel okay, but for the past few days I serioiusly had NOTHING to do. I've slept over 18 hours of a day this week, because in the afternoons while Jason is playing DAoC I lie in his bed until I fall asleep out of sheer boredom.
Jason has the problem (you admitted it, honey, so don't take offense) of not being able to take "I don't know" as an answer. I will complain that I'm bored and he should stop playing on the computer and do something with me, but he has to know EXACTLY what "something" is or it's not a valid request. I can't just say, "Honey, I want to do something..." He'll say, "Like what?" to which I can only respond, "I don't know!!" The problem of I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO HERE. Especially when it comes to things that don't cost money. Certainly we could go to Boston and go to the science museum, but when you factor in gas (or subway fare) and admission fees and such, it's expensive.
I wish there were a gym I were a member of. Just someplace with some treadmills or stationary bikes. There are parks with trails that I could jog on, but I've learned that something about the way my leg healed from the break doesn't like it to do really high-impact stuff. That's why DDR still hurts after a while (although the step-not-jump method really helps) and high-impact aerobics suck.
I like being here, and I like Jason. I just don't like the quality of my life right now as a visitor at Jason's house. For him, I think it's gotten past the original "WOO Julia is here!!" stage where he juggled things to spend time with me all the time, and we're doing more "normal Jason life with a Julia hanging around ALL the time" which isn't healthy when I don't have a normal Julia life to spend my other time on. Does that make sense? *sigh*
In better news, Adriana doesn't have work on Tuesday (she was going to have to work on Tuesday instead of Monday because of Memorial Day, but that even got changed), so Jason and I can go up to Loon Mountain on Monday night and come back on Wednesday night or even Thursday early afternoon for work on Thursday. I hope we will have some good couple-time there.
Jason and I went bike-riding today... for about 10-15 minutes. We rode around the block a bit, up and down some hills (up a really hard one), and at that point Jason needed to stop. I felt a bit better about myself that I definitely could've kept going when he needed to stop. I guess he needs to get in shape too... wish I could get him to exercise with me!! That would be wonderful for my motivation. I'm going to try to get us to bike a little each day, at least..
Before we went out to do that, I kind of broke down. It was 4pm, and all I had done all day was sleep, eat, and read a book. I was feeling restless, but there was nothing I could do. I wanted to do something physical, but most of my avenues were blocked - my exercise videos and DDR pad were at Adriana's, Jason's sister's tae-bo tapes were lent to a friend of hers, and going outside wasn't very useful because I would get lost after turning two corners unless I headed down the main streets, which very quickly dump into bad neighborhoods before becoming good again. Jason was sitting at the computer playing DAoC as normal, and I felt like I was being ignored. Anything I do here is dependent on him, because he knows the town and I don't. I don't feel comfortable just leaving in my car and driving 'out' - I don't know where I'd go or what I'd do. I tell him that I want to do SOMETHING and he asks me what... but I don't know what there is to do. He's just fine sitting at his computer all day, but I am growing serious issues with sitting on my ass and doing nothing. If I were getting 'positive' recreational things done - like advancing on a video game, reading a book, watching movies, etc - I'd feel okay, but for the past few days I serioiusly had NOTHING to do. I've slept over 18 hours of a day this week, because in the afternoons while Jason is playing DAoC I lie in his bed until I fall asleep out of sheer boredom.
Jason has the problem (you admitted it, honey, so don't take offense) of not being able to take "I don't know" as an answer. I will complain that I'm bored and he should stop playing on the computer and do something with me, but he has to know EXACTLY what "something" is or it's not a valid request. I can't just say, "Honey, I want to do something..." He'll say, "Like what?" to which I can only respond, "I don't know!!" The problem of I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO HERE. Especially when it comes to things that don't cost money. Certainly we could go to Boston and go to the science museum, but when you factor in gas (or subway fare) and admission fees and such, it's expensive.
I wish there were a gym I were a member of. Just someplace with some treadmills or stationary bikes. There are parks with trails that I could jog on, but I've learned that something about the way my leg healed from the break doesn't like it to do really high-impact stuff. That's why DDR still hurts after a while (although the step-not-jump method really helps) and high-impact aerobics suck.
I like being here, and I like Jason. I just don't like the quality of my life right now as a visitor at Jason's house. For him, I think it's gotten past the original "WOO Julia is here!!" stage where he juggled things to spend time with me all the time, and we're doing more "normal Jason life with a Julia hanging around ALL the time" which isn't healthy when I don't have a normal Julia life to spend my other time on. Does that make sense? *sigh*
In better news, Adriana doesn't have work on Tuesday (she was going to have to work on Tuesday instead of Monday because of Memorial Day, but that even got changed), so Jason and I can go up to Loon Mountain on Monday night and come back on Wednesday night or even Thursday early afternoon for work on Thursday. I hope we will have some good couple-time there.
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