home again, home again, jiggity jig

I have two beautiful cats that love me very much.

The flight home was rather uneventful... I didn't get my vegetarian meal but the lady next to me got one (I guess when they changed my flight over they didn't move that info, bah) and since I made a big deal about making sure she had ordered one, I didn't feel right eating the meat-ful part of a regular meal in front of her, so I only ate the chips and candy... and she offered me half of her hummus-veggie-pita sandwich. I was very happy and grateful. What a nice lady.

Goldbug picked me up from the airport with superlong hair (that's what months away will do) and we got to catch up on the way home. I'm very glad she's back. We got KFC and stopped by the Hotel to pick up my key, and came home to purring cats. Soon afterwards Karen came over to see her Tenchi presents, and we all left for Walmart because Karen needed an air filter, but I ended up being the only one who bought anything.

I inherited a wheel mouse from Jason (woo no more silly touchpad), so I bought myself a mousepad with gel wrist pad... and a bike seat. Must update wishlist...). Now I just need to get the wheel part of the mouse to work.

After I sleep, I will be back in my regular life. I don't want to go back. I very much enjoyed my vacation into my other, happier life, filled with lovers and friends and cheerfulness. And no tears.

At least I have my cats...

home again, home again, jiggity jig

I have two beautiful cats that love me very much.

The flight home was rather uneventful... I didn't get my vegetarian meal but the lady next to me got one (I guess when they changed my flight over they didn't move that info, bah) and since I made a big deal about making sure she had ordered one, I didn't feel right eating the meat-ful part of a regular meal in front of her, so I only ate the chips and candy... and she offered me half of her hummus-veggie-pita sandwich. I was very happy and grateful. What a nice lady.

Goldbug picked me up from the airport with superlong hair (that's what months away will do) and we got to catch up on the way home. I'm very glad she's back. We got KFC and stopped by the Hotel to pick up my key, and came home to purring cats. Soon afterwards Karen came over to see her Tenchi presents, and we all left for Walmart because Karen needed an air filter, but I ended up being the only one who bought anything.

I inherited a wheel mouse from Jason (woo no more silly touchpad), so I bought myself a mousepad with gel wrist pad... and a bike seat. Must update wishlist...). Now I just need to get the wheel part of the mouse to work.

After I sleep, I will be back in my regular life. I don't want to go back. I very much enjoyed my vacation into my other, happier life, filled with lovers and friends and cheerfulness. And no tears.

At least I have my cats...

stupid technology

damn computer and damn windows won't recognize that there's a wheel on my mouse. someone please help fix. Oh wait... not please, "plz". Oh well, I guess i'ts just another sign to get into bed.

I fit into boys' size XL thermal shirts.

stupid technology

damn computer and damn windows won't recognize that there's a wheel on my mouse. someone please help fix. Oh wait... not please, "plz". Oh well, I guess i'ts just another sign to get into bed.

I fit into boys' size XL thermal shirts.

sattelite in my eyes

My car turned over 60k miles today. Which is funny, because Wednesday marks my one-year anniversary of owning it, and I got it with somewhere around 40k miles on it (I have that figure somewhere at home)... which means I drive 20k miles a year, roughly. That's quite a bit, I believe my insurance company thinks it's only 10k. ;)

I spent a long time today at work playing with excel and 4 weeks of work logs and making stats about the phone lines at Saxon. The busiest weekday is Wednesday, followed by Tuesday, Thursday, Monday, and finally Friday. I also did time-of-day, and I think I remember that 11-12 was the busiest hour... I charted it out and sent it to all the people who would care, noting that the best times (busiest times) for two people to be in the office answering phones would be 10-3.

I'm wearing my boys' thermal top today. It fits so well; the arms are even the right length. That's kinda weird, but hey, I'll live with it.

I had thai for lunch. The people behind the counter at Pad Thai (recognizable, but not known, from Thai Kum Koon) decided that they had seen me enough in both restaurants to ask me how the food from Pad Thai matched up, and they told me that if I ever had an idea or suggestion about the food, I should speak up. I feel important. I think I will mention that their baby corn usage is at a horrendously low level. ;)

Today while driving in to the lab, I got glares and mean gestures from people looking at the sorority/fraternity chalk drawings on the sidewalk near the physics building. I drove over the drawings. It's not like I spit on them and smeared the chalk, I was just driving on them with dry tires. Freaks.

Maybe I will be up all night tonight. I have so much work to do. I wish I could ignore it all. I wish I could go back to Boston. I will probably go to band practice although it won't be good for me, it'll just cause me to procrastinate more and have to stay up later... Same with laundry, although that's actually somewhat important (I had a hell of a time finding pants to wear this morning). Maybe goldbug will come over and we'll have a semi-homework-party... I will do homework, and she'll read HP4. Sounds like a plan to me.

I need to check and see if there is a home football game in the afternoon this weekend. If so, I can't give plasma in the morning (it'll be closed) and I should give on Thursday morning.

*continue ignoring pile of books behind me*

sattelite in my eyes

My car turned over 60k miles today. Which is funny, because Wednesday marks my one-year anniversary of owning it, and I got it with somewhere around 40k miles on it (I have that figure somewhere at home)... which means I drive 20k miles a year, roughly. That's quite a bit, I believe my insurance company thinks it's only 10k. ;)

I spent a long time today at work playing with excel and 4 weeks of work logs and making stats about the phone lines at Saxon. The busiest weekday is Wednesday, followed by Tuesday, Thursday, Monday, and finally Friday. I also did time-of-day, and I think I remember that 11-12 was the busiest hour... I charted it out and sent it to all the people who would care, noting that the best times (busiest times) for two people to be in the office answering phones would be 10-3.

I'm wearing my boys' thermal top today. It fits so well; the arms are even the right length. That's kinda weird, but hey, I'll live with it.

I had thai for lunch. The people behind the counter at Pad Thai (recognizable, but not known, from Thai Kum Koon) decided that they had seen me enough in both restaurants to ask me how the food from Pad Thai matched up, and they told me that if I ever had an idea or suggestion about the food, I should speak up. I feel important. I think I will mention that their baby corn usage is at a horrendously low level. ;)

Today while driving in to the lab, I got glares and mean gestures from people looking at the sorority/fraternity chalk drawings on the sidewalk near the physics building. I drove over the drawings. It's not like I spit on them and smeared the chalk, I was just driving on them with dry tires. Freaks.

Maybe I will be up all night tonight. I have so much work to do. I wish I could ignore it all. I wish I could go back to Boston. I will probably go to band practice although it won't be good for me, it'll just cause me to procrastinate more and have to stay up later... Same with laundry, although that's actually somewhat important (I had a hell of a time finding pants to wear this morning). Maybe goldbug will come over and we'll have a semi-homework-party... I will do homework, and she'll read HP4. Sounds like a plan to me.

I need to check and see if there is a home football game in the afternoon this weekend. If so, I can't give plasma in the morning (it'll be closed) and I should give on Thursday morning.

*continue ignoring pile of books behind me*

Linkin Park - By Myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride / from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I / sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I / try to catch them red – handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can’t hold on / when I’m stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I’m lost within
I put on my daily façade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself [myself]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself

I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I
Turn my back I’m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on / then they’ll
Take from me ‘till everything is gone
If I let them go I’ll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer
[by myself]

How do you think / I’ve lost so much
I’m so afraid / I’m out of touch
How do you expect / I will know what to do
When all I know / Is what you tell me to
Don’t you know
I can’t tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can’t seem to convince myself why
I’m stuck on the outside

Linkin Park - By Myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride / from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I / sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I / try to catch them red – handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can’t hold on / when I’m stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I’m lost within
I put on my daily façade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself [myself]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself

I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I
Turn my back I’m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on / then they’ll
Take from me ‘till everything is gone
If I let them go I’ll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer
[by myself]

How do you think / I’ve lost so much
I’m so afraid / I’m out of touch
How do you expect / I will know what to do
When all I know / Is what you tell me to
Don’t you know
I can’t tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can’t seem to convince myself why
I’m stuck on the outside