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I found my diary. From age 8-12. Here are 31 entries, painstakingly transcribed with exact spelling, punctuation, and even emphasis.
10/15/88
Dear Diary,
Today was fine. I went with tommy some where. But I Got scolded. We are about to move. On oct. 24 we are leaving the island. I feel bad. I don't wan't to leave. Today I wonderd If I want to dump my X-boyfriend, wayne. I dicided I will. Besides, he Just says he's so strong becouse he wants me to admire him. And I don't care about him.
I was really confused on the whole "ex" concept, wasn't I? And for the record, those underlined parts were underlined with FOUR lines.
10/16/88
Dear Diary,
today was my last day at Sunday school. I broke what I said on the first page. I played with wayne. oh well. I'll dump him tomarrow.
Oh man.
Following that one, there are seven pages ripped out. I guess it was a bad breakup.
11/1/88
Dear diary,
It has been a long time since I wrote to you. My famely and me are already at texas. one more day and we'll get to barksdale (The place we will live). signed,
Julia
Underneath this one is a roughly drawn picture of my entire family. Think detailed stick figures. I ruled.
11/2/88
Dear Diary,
I am going to interview on my family. Dad: His favorite color is blue. He likes college basket ball. He likes it becouse it is exiting. Mom: her favorite color is green. She likes base ball. She likes it becous it is a good game. Travis: His fovorite color is purple. He likes Bas ball. he likes it becouse he's good at it. Deanna: Her favorite color is blue. She likes horse-jumping. She likes it becouse the horses are beautiful. signed,
Julia
The "beautiful" at the end is obviously written over an erased version of the same word, probably misspelled horribly. I can't believe how random my spelling was!
11/12/88
Dear Diary,
My parents are out looking at houses. My brother is watching me and my sister.
Insert another drawing. Either Deanna or me, I guess.
A blank page. A few ripped out pages. Another drawing, colored in with different colors of highlighter, of Deanna and a "Lauren". A friend of hers?
The next page has an elaborate pen drawing of a Christmas Tree.
Mar 21, 1989
Dear Diary
I borrowed #7 from Joi today. I hate school.
Laugh. That would be book #7 of the Babysitter's Club books. Joiwind Caperton, the daughter of my piano teacher, got me hooked on those books.
Mar 22, 1989
I have to do my make-up S. I have to make them up.
That would probably stand for sentences. I was quite the child prodigy wasn't I?
The next page has a drawing of an animal face with crossed eyes and a speech bubble saying, "I'm talking to a nerd"
June 6, 1989
Dear Diary,
School is out! I have borrowed numbers 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 14, 15, 16, 17, and 18 from Joi. Tomorrow is Deanna's birthday! Millions of little kids at a party. Yuck!
Sicerily,
J.J. Fad
Okay, this is getting embarrassing. J.J. Fad? WTF??
The accompanying drawing has assumedly Deanna (with a large ponytail) saying "My Birthday!" with a smile and me (with a ponytail and a frown) saying, "Yuck!"
August 1, 1989
Dear Diary,
Deanna is stupid
Quick, clean, to the point.
Sept. 30, 1989
Dear Diary,
Wait! I have to take a shower!
no comment.
Oct 1, 1989
Deary Diary, today went fine. I Still remember the Bionic Six. If you can belive it. We are visiting Hawaii in November. I can not wait to see Wayne, Miki, Erica, Eric, and Ryan. Today me and Tracie slid luv notes under Mike Magaw's Door. It is about 10:00 and me and Deanna are still up.
I guess I didn't dump him... Oh, and I -still- remember the Bionic Six.
Oct 2, 1989
Dear Diary,
My mom wouldn't let me write to you! Bye-Bye for now!
Nov 5, 1989
Dear Diary,
We Will be going to Hawaii on Nov. 16. I can't wait to go. I love Hawaii. And I want to see Wayne, Miki, Ericka, Eric, and Ryan. It will be a Thur. when we leave so I'll have homework to do on the plane
JJ Fad
This entry was written with red crayon. And again with the JJ Fad!
Dec. 18, 1989
Last night Cassy spent the night. We had fun. We joked about Wayne. I miss him. I have finished a weaving project. I lookes pretty.
J.J. Fad
That's it. I'm internet-stalking Wayne once I'm done transcribing this. I've gotta re-find this guy. Wayne Edwards.
Fri, Dec 22, 1989
Almost the new year! Tomorrow we are going to our grandparents. It will be fun. We are cleaning house.
Wed, Jan 3, 1990!
Oh, no! Carlos Flores lives here! I think I'll die!!!! Ok, lets take our minds off Carlos. Today it rained. We had a pop quiz in English. It was OK because I missed one. Deanna brought home a BSC calender, a Little Mermaid book, and a Annie Okley book. I brought #30 to school. It's Joywinds. Bye-Bye!
I was quite enamored with the Babysitter's Club, if you can't tell. Carlos was a boy who had gone to school with me in Hawaii and somehow, amazingly, move to Louisiana to the exact same school just a few months after I moved. The military can be weird like that...
Dear Diary,
Last night I spent the night at Tracie's. It was her birthday party. I wrote to Miki.
March 16, 1990
Dear Diary,
I am in school. I pine for Randy. I better listen to my teacher.
HOLY SHIT. I said I pined for someone at the age of 10. That's beautiful. I am cracking up. Oh wait, this entry isn't done, there's more at the bottom of the page.
Oh, Diary,
Randy got his hair cut! He is SO cute. How could someone not like him?
The "so" is in capital letters and takes up two lines. Grin.
Mar 16, 1990
We have a social studies sub. She is Mrs. Bauer. She is strict
- J.J. Fad
March 20, 1990
Dear Diary,
Randy is such a hunk! He is the cutest boy in Louisiana!
LaRita is absent today. I'm sad.
Bye 'cause I'm in school,
I'm glad to see my spelling improved some, and you should see the handwriting improvement.
Ah, LaRita. My bestest friend for a couple years. I wonder what she's up to now.
The next entry references Mike, my cousin, who came to visit. I had a huge crush on him, being too young to know it was wrong.
Diary,
I miss Mike. Too bad he lives in Wisconsin. I have some lies in here about Randy because every-one likes him and I don't think people will like me. I hope Christina isn't reading this. I still like Wayne even if the writing on the 1st and 2nd page is here. I was in a bad mood. So my loves are Wayne and Mike.
- J.J. Fad
Wow. I had issues. Serious issues.
August 13, 1990
Whoa! Only 1 week until school. I will be going to Stockwell. Yes, we're moving off base. I won't even be going to Walker for fifth grade.
I will miss LaRita, Christina, and Cassy. I won't miss Andy and Adam.
Maybe there are cute boys at Stockwell. I hope so.
Sept. 21, 1990
Oh, wow! I havn't written in a month. I'm sorry. Anyway, I'm at Stockwell. I love Clint Wilson and he likes me. I know because he jokes with me. He is cute.
So this flirting thing isn't something I've just recently done...
Jan 31, 1992
AT THE START OF THE NEW YEAR I PROMISE TO WRITE IN YOU EVERY DAY.
Today I taught Michael our slap-happy routine. I got out in the spelling bee on chalice. I really hope that "?" knows I like him. The poem I wrote to him is here. It's cute.
Are you curious who "?" is? I sure am...
Feb. 2, 1992
Hi. I have a lot to say. I really don't like my mom. She makes me do things I hate like piano. I hate hate hate it. I don't care if I'm good at it I hate it. UNDERSTAND? I HATE IT!!!!!! I hope someone reads this!!!!!
- Julia (hates piano)
P.S. The "?" I talked about yesterday turns out to be gross.
Wow. The big bold "I hate it" is about three lines tall. Beautiful.
Feb 3, 1992
ALERT! ALERT! JUICEY NEWS! At recess today Karen said that Michael acted like a girl. I denied it, of course. Also, in 1st period we heard about the Cope Couger Cuties pageant, where boys dress up as girls. On the bus Jeremy said, "We're going to vote for a nerd". And I said Dane but he said Michael and I said no way. Then he said he used to be friends with Michael but that Michael was saying things about him and Dane behind his back. So Jeremy is no longer the cutest guy in the world. Now he's teh biggest bitch. All I know is I'm going to talk to Michael and for the pagent I'll bring the blond wig and gold outfit. I hope Dane's in it!
Okay, this entry brings back a rush of memories. There WAS a cross-dressing pageant in junior high. It was the greatest thing ever. These 11-14 year old boys would put on wigs, makeup, dresses, and even heels and play-act a beauty pageant. It cost about $10 to get in to see it and it was a GREAT fund-raiser.
I don't remember who Karen was, but Jeremy, Michael, and Dane. Wow. I had forgotten about Dane, but can remember his face now. Jeremy lived two doors down and really was the cutest guy in the world. I had SUCH a crush on him. Michael was the guy who was friends with me but wouldn't admit it because it would ruin his popularity level. Heh. Let's read on...
Oh, and did you see I said bitch!! Wow, what a bad 11 year old I was!
2/4/92
Michael's in the pageant! He got 100 extra points averaged in. He might ride hom w/ me somday so he can see my stuff. The gold outfit is too gross. Maybe the green one or the real pageant dress. Ha! ha! I can still imagine Dane in it.
These outfits would be old dress-up clothes, of course.
2/5/92
I'm bored bored bored bored bored! I wish I lived somewhere with kids my age. I have NOTHING to do. I'm bored. Nothing juicy today!
2/6/92
Michael's parents won't let him be in the pageant! Major bum! Well, today Renee came over and said that if I want to be friends w/ Michael I'd have to keep my hands off Jeremy. Please! I'm going to say, "Bitch, if you think I'd have anything to do with that asshole you're screwed in the head." That will get them!
Oh my god! I was so Jerry Springer!
I don't think I ever actually said that to Renee.
3/7/92
I haven't written to you in a month! Well, Andrew Price won the CCC pageant. I never told Renee it. Tonight I'm 12!
NOW
I'm worried about Rachel. On Tues. she said that last night she got drunk with Billy. That sent warning lights. Then she said the same thing Wednesday. And on Thurs she had a hangover. Bethany, the new girl, told me. That definitely made me worry. Rachel said that she drank wine coolers. I don't know what to do. I'm afraid that if I confront her that she'll say I'm allright. But if I don't she might get in trouble. WHAT DO I DO?!?!?!? I'm really scared!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need someone! Should I tell Elizabeth? She could help! I'm scared for Rachel. I have to go.
P.S. Thane loves Gonga! + Crossbow!
Wow. I remember this. Twelve years old and my first friend with a substance abuse problem. And yes, she was 12 too. We hung out at the skating rink together. I wonder if she's still alive.
I have no clue what that postscript means.
...which is amusing, as it's the last thing in the diary. All of the remaining pages (and there are a lot of them) are blank.
Wow. You have now seen a part of me that was previously hidden away, and I'm beginning to think there's a good reason for that.
10/15/88
Dear Diary,
Today was fine. I went with tommy some where. But I Got scolded. We are about to move. On oct. 24 we are leaving the island. I feel bad. I don't wan't to leave. Today I wonderd If I want to dump my X-boyfriend, wayne. I dicided I will. Besides, he Just says he's so strong becouse he wants me to admire him. And I don't care about him.
I was really confused on the whole "ex" concept, wasn't I? And for the record, those underlined parts were underlined with FOUR lines.
10/16/88
Dear Diary,
today was my last day at Sunday school. I broke what I said on the first page. I played with wayne. oh well. I'll dump him tomarrow.
Oh man.
Following that one, there are seven pages ripped out. I guess it was a bad breakup.
11/1/88
Dear diary,
It has been a long time since I wrote to you. My famely and me are already at texas. one more day and we'll get to barksdale (The place we will live). signed,
Julia
Underneath this one is a roughly drawn picture of my entire family. Think detailed stick figures. I ruled.
11/2/88
Dear Diary,
I am going to interview on my family. Dad: His favorite color is blue. He likes college basket ball. He likes it becouse it is exiting. Mom: her favorite color is green. She likes base ball. She likes it becous it is a good game. Travis: His fovorite color is purple. He likes Bas ball. he likes it becouse he's good at it. Deanna: Her favorite color is blue. She likes horse-jumping. She likes it becouse the horses are beautiful. signed,
Julia
The "beautiful" at the end is obviously written over an erased version of the same word, probably misspelled horribly. I can't believe how random my spelling was!
11/12/88
Dear Diary,
My parents are out looking at houses. My brother is watching me and my sister.
Insert another drawing. Either Deanna or me, I guess.
A blank page. A few ripped out pages. Another drawing, colored in with different colors of highlighter, of Deanna and a "Lauren". A friend of hers?
The next page has an elaborate pen drawing of a Christmas Tree.
Mar 21, 1989
Dear Diary
I borrowed #7 from Joi today. I hate school.
Laugh. That would be book #7 of the Babysitter's Club books. Joiwind Caperton, the daughter of my piano teacher, got me hooked on those books.
Mar 22, 1989
I have to do my make-up S. I have to make them up.
That would probably stand for sentences. I was quite the child prodigy wasn't I?
The next page has a drawing of an animal face with crossed eyes and a speech bubble saying, "I'm talking to a nerd"
June 6, 1989
Dear Diary,
School is out! I have borrowed numbers 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 14, 15, 16, 17, and 18 from Joi. Tomorrow is Deanna's birthday! Millions of little kids at a party. Yuck!
Sicerily,
J.J. Fad
Okay, this is getting embarrassing. J.J. Fad? WTF??
The accompanying drawing has assumedly Deanna (with a large ponytail) saying "My Birthday!" with a smile and me (with a ponytail and a frown) saying, "Yuck!"
August 1, 1989
Dear Diary,
Deanna is stupid
Quick, clean, to the point.
Sept. 30, 1989
Dear Diary,
Wait! I have to take a shower!
no comment.
Oct 1, 1989
Deary Diary, today went fine. I Still remember the Bionic Six. If you can belive it. We are visiting Hawaii in November. I can not wait to see Wayne, Miki, Erica, Eric, and Ryan. Today me and Tracie slid luv notes under Mike Magaw's Door. It is about 10:00 and me and Deanna are still up.
I guess I didn't dump him... Oh, and I -still- remember the Bionic Six.
Oct 2, 1989
Dear Diary,
My mom wouldn't let me write to you! Bye-Bye for now!
Nov 5, 1989
Dear Diary,
We Will be going to Hawaii on Nov. 16. I can't wait to go. I love Hawaii. And I want to see Wayne, Miki, Ericka, Eric, and Ryan. It will be a Thur. when we leave so I'll have homework to do on the plane
JJ Fad
This entry was written with red crayon. And again with the JJ Fad!
Dec. 18, 1989
Last night Cassy spent the night. We had fun. We joked about Wayne. I miss him. I have finished a weaving project. I lookes pretty.
J.J. Fad
That's it. I'm internet-stalking Wayne once I'm done transcribing this. I've gotta re-find this guy. Wayne Edwards.
Fri, Dec 22, 1989
Almost the new year! Tomorrow we are going to our grandparents. It will be fun. We are cleaning house.
Wed, Jan 3, 1990!
Oh, no! Carlos Flores lives here! I think I'll die!!!! Ok, lets take our minds off Carlos. Today it rained. We had a pop quiz in English. It was OK because I missed one. Deanna brought home a BSC calender, a Little Mermaid book, and a Annie Okley book. I brought #30 to school. It's Joywinds. Bye-Bye!
I was quite enamored with the Babysitter's Club, if you can't tell. Carlos was a boy who had gone to school with me in Hawaii and somehow, amazingly, move to Louisiana to the exact same school just a few months after I moved. The military can be weird like that...
Dear Diary,
Last night I spent the night at Tracie's. It was her birthday party. I wrote to Miki.
March 16, 1990
Dear Diary,
I am in school. I pine for Randy. I better listen to my teacher.
HOLY SHIT. I said I pined for someone at the age of 10. That's beautiful. I am cracking up. Oh wait, this entry isn't done, there's more at the bottom of the page.
Oh, Diary,
Randy got his hair cut! He is SO cute. How could someone not like him?
The "so" is in capital letters and takes up two lines. Grin.
Mar 16, 1990
We have a social studies sub. She is Mrs. Bauer. She is strict
- J.J. Fad
March 20, 1990
Dear Diary,
Randy is such a hunk! He is the cutest boy in Louisiana!
LaRita is absent today. I'm sad.
Bye 'cause I'm in school,
I'm glad to see my spelling improved some, and you should see the handwriting improvement.
Ah, LaRita. My bestest friend for a couple years. I wonder what she's up to now.
The next entry references Mike, my cousin, who came to visit. I had a huge crush on him, being too young to know it was wrong.
Diary,
I miss Mike. Too bad he lives in Wisconsin. I have some lies in here about Randy because every-one likes him and I don't think people will like me. I hope Christina isn't reading this. I still like Wayne even if the writing on the 1st and 2nd page is here. I was in a bad mood. So my loves are Wayne and Mike.
- J.J. Fad
Wow. I had issues. Serious issues.
August 13, 1990
Whoa! Only 1 week until school. I will be going to Stockwell. Yes, we're moving off base. I won't even be going to Walker for fifth grade.
I will miss LaRita, Christina, and Cassy. I won't miss Andy and Adam.
Maybe there are cute boys at Stockwell. I hope so.
Sept. 21, 1990
Oh, wow! I havn't written in a month. I'm sorry. Anyway, I'm at Stockwell. I love Clint Wilson and he likes me. I know because he jokes with me. He is cute.
So this flirting thing isn't something I've just recently done...
Jan 31, 1992
AT THE START OF THE NEW YEAR I PROMISE TO WRITE IN YOU EVERY DAY.
Today I taught Michael our slap-happy routine. I got out in the spelling bee on chalice. I really hope that "?" knows I like him. The poem I wrote to him is here. It's cute.
Are you curious who "?" is? I sure am...
Feb. 2, 1992
Hi. I have a lot to say. I really don't like my mom. She makes me do things I hate like piano. I hate hate hate it. I don't care if I'm good at it I hate it. UNDERSTAND? I HATE IT!!!!!! I hope someone reads this!!!!!
- Julia (hates piano)
P.S. The "?" I talked about yesterday turns out to be gross.
Wow. The big bold "I hate it" is about three lines tall. Beautiful.
Feb 3, 1992
ALERT! ALERT! JUICEY NEWS! At recess today Karen said that Michael acted like a girl. I denied it, of course. Also, in 1st period we heard about the Cope Couger Cuties pageant, where boys dress up as girls. On the bus Jeremy said, "We're going to vote for a nerd". And I said Dane but he said Michael and I said no way. Then he said he used to be friends with Michael but that Michael was saying things about him and Dane behind his back. So Jeremy is no longer the cutest guy in the world. Now he's teh biggest bitch. All I know is I'm going to talk to Michael and for the pagent I'll bring the blond wig and gold outfit. I hope Dane's in it!
Okay, this entry brings back a rush of memories. There WAS a cross-dressing pageant in junior high. It was the greatest thing ever. These 11-14 year old boys would put on wigs, makeup, dresses, and even heels and play-act a beauty pageant. It cost about $10 to get in to see it and it was a GREAT fund-raiser.
I don't remember who Karen was, but Jeremy, Michael, and Dane. Wow. I had forgotten about Dane, but can remember his face now. Jeremy lived two doors down and really was the cutest guy in the world. I had SUCH a crush on him. Michael was the guy who was friends with me but wouldn't admit it because it would ruin his popularity level. Heh. Let's read on...
Oh, and did you see I said bitch!! Wow, what a bad 11 year old I was!
2/4/92
Michael's in the pageant! He got 100 extra points averaged in. He might ride hom w/ me somday so he can see my stuff. The gold outfit is too gross. Maybe the green one or the real pageant dress. Ha! ha! I can still imagine Dane in it.
These outfits would be old dress-up clothes, of course.
2/5/92
I'm bored bored bored bored bored! I wish I lived somewhere with kids my age. I have NOTHING to do. I'm bored. Nothing juicy today!
2/6/92
Michael's parents won't let him be in the pageant! Major bum! Well, today Renee came over and said that if I want to be friends w/ Michael I'd have to keep my hands off Jeremy. Please! I'm going to say, "Bitch, if you think I'd have anything to do with that asshole you're screwed in the head." That will get them!
Oh my god! I was so Jerry Springer!
I don't think I ever actually said that to Renee.
3/7/92
I haven't written to you in a month! Well, Andrew Price won the CCC pageant. I never told Renee it. Tonight I'm 12!
NOW
I'm worried about Rachel. On Tues. she said that last night she got drunk with Billy. That sent warning lights. Then she said the same thing Wednesday. And on Thurs she had a hangover. Bethany, the new girl, told me. That definitely made me worry. Rachel said that she drank wine coolers. I don't know what to do. I'm afraid that if I confront her that she'll say I'm allright. But if I don't she might get in trouble. WHAT DO I DO?!?!?!? I'm really scared!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need someone! Should I tell Elizabeth? She could help! I'm scared for Rachel. I have to go.
P.S. Thane loves Gonga! + Crossbow!
Wow. I remember this. Twelve years old and my first friend with a substance abuse problem. And yes, she was 12 too. We hung out at the skating rink together. I wonder if she's still alive.
I have no clue what that postscript means.
...which is amusing, as it's the last thing in the diary. All of the remaining pages (and there are a lot of them) are blank.
Wow. You have now seen a part of me that was previously hidden away, and I'm beginning to think there's a good reason for that.
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I think "I am pining for Randy" actually appeared one year verbatim.
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